This blog is written inside my own classroom while the class is still going on.I don't know how I feel about my hopes are being vaporized in air as days gone by.I am trying hard to make my dreams hydrated but no uphill task it seems.Just like the Trichy weather everything is burning into ashes it seems.
I don't know at this point of my life what I want from life.I am trying so hard to make things work out.But hardly anything has moved.The interest among people are really at the lowest level.Even if there is interest I see little zeal in people for doing something.Whenever my fate was decided to be here I knew I am trying to do the impossible.The value addition I was seeking was never here.Yes it is true the crowd matters.During my time in bachelors perhaps i should have been more pro active.Once somebody decides to do an MBA we should consider every aspect of it.Still as a glimmer of hope I see some people devoting their lives towards UPSC exam.I don't know how far they are going to be successful in their pursuit I know for sure the knowledge they will gain during this course of preparation will help their life in immense ways.During the whole journey of UPSC I believe they will be better human being.I always wanted to pursue UPSC but never had the guts to do that.
The other aspects that I wanted to work on are also not materializing at all it seems. My dream start with the Academy is also fading away.I was not giving enough time towards it for various reasons.Now I have decided to devote a portion of my time towards my dream project.Here the things I want to do ae moving at snail's pace.My dad used to say if you are not able to move things at your own will then its your own fault for not being able to motivate your peers towards reaching the common objective.Now I wonder is it really me who is at fault or is it the environment or is it me being at the wrong place at wrong time.
I don't know why some people just can't appreciate cooperate or appreciate a good idea but in fact they go against the idea and criticize people who in fact are trying to do something.They just don't even have the courtesy to shut their mouth and let others do what they are trying to.I know I am sounding a bit pessimist but I can't help myself without sounding pessimist.Is it because of the lives we live these days or is it because of the society we live in.Lately I realized though we have moved a huge way towards liberalizing our mind but the lives we are living we don't have the time to get ourselves involved with the things that we want to do from our heart.We seriously lack the guts to think of something we want to do from core of our heart.Thereby we just don't take any interest on there things and hence try to take cheap pleasure in the form of humor by criticizing those ideas.I am sure I am struggling but still I have not put my laurels down and accepting my failure. Yes, dad I am not being able to motivate others.The fault lies with me.But I make sure one thing the day soon will come when I will transform my failures into success that you will make you proud.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
New journey new beginning
I am writing something after ages...I want to reduce the gap in between but never managed to.I always have something to tell u all but never managed to write it down.Today I have decided even if I write half I will publish.It is often FB being the hindrance.Anyways today I am determined to finish this up.
Finally the day has come for which I was waiting for.After my failed attempt to enjoy life at software industry I was really eager to go for MBA.It is again a huge disappointment (or should I call it my bad luck?) that I have to come here.It is really far from home.When I entered in hostel I was determined not to commit the same mistakes once I did in my hostel.Though I was in hostel I never ever tried to make myself a part of the hostel gang.I have tried my level best for that.Yes there were obstacles.To be honest my nature is for one.I am here to change the things that does not suit me.The problem is I am always stay away from noises.But its not always possible.To do the best you have to be in positions you don't want to be in.I guess 4 years of hostel life has taught enough of it to cope with.
Regarding my hostel I was happy to be allotted a 2 seater instead of 3.I was so uncomfortable with sharing my room.It's okay I have I have room mate and I will try to see the picture from a different angle now.It may work in your favour also if you have a room mate.
The people I met here were of different personalities.Enjoyed the company of each of everyone for different reasons.Loved someone's sense of humour,someone's maturity,someone's ability to converse serious,someone for his generousness,loved someone's eagerness for study (Yes ! These days I love that too).And yes you will have people will with all sorts of imagination.The people are really of different colored.
As expected food is on the horrific side of it.Oh man imagine fried rice with curd rice no veg or dal or anything just some chutneys.These local people say its not that bad.It must be my habit.I need to get that quickly out of my system.Again from August onwards it should be okay .
A new day has actually arrived.A mixed feeling on emotional front.I know something is missing for sure.Did I do the right thing?I don't think so.Should I try to correct it?I don't really know.I messed up my life.I just feel now whatever destiny has planned for me I should better be accepting that with open arms.I did my choices go out of my hands.
Well enough of it.I am signing it off.I should better go off to sleep.Tomorrow I have a class at 9.30 am.Too bad..!!
Finally the day has come for which I was waiting for.After my failed attempt to enjoy life at software industry I was really eager to go for MBA.It is again a huge disappointment (or should I call it my bad luck?) that I have to come here.It is really far from home.When I entered in hostel I was determined not to commit the same mistakes once I did in my hostel.Though I was in hostel I never ever tried to make myself a part of the hostel gang.I have tried my level best for that.Yes there were obstacles.To be honest my nature is for one.I am here to change the things that does not suit me.The problem is I am always stay away from noises.But its not always possible.To do the best you have to be in positions you don't want to be in.I guess 4 years of hostel life has taught enough of it to cope with.
Regarding my hostel I was happy to be allotted a 2 seater instead of 3.I was so uncomfortable with sharing my room.It's okay I have I have room mate and I will try to see the picture from a different angle now.It may work in your favour also if you have a room mate.
The people I met here were of different personalities.Enjoyed the company of each of everyone for different reasons.Loved someone's sense of humour,someone's maturity,someone's ability to converse serious,someone for his generousness,loved someone's eagerness for study (Yes ! These days I love that too).And yes you will have people will with all sorts of imagination.The people are really of different colored.
As expected food is on the horrific side of it.Oh man imagine fried rice with curd rice no veg or dal or anything just some chutneys.These local people say its not that bad.It must be my habit.I need to get that quickly out of my system.Again from August onwards it should be okay .
A new day has actually arrived.A mixed feeling on emotional front.I know something is missing for sure.Did I do the right thing?I don't think so.Should I try to correct it?I don't really know.I messed up my life.I just feel now whatever destiny has planned for me I should better be accepting that with open arms.I did my choices go out of my hands.
Well enough of it.I am signing it off.I should better go off to sleep.Tomorrow I have a class at 9.30 am.Too bad..!!
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