This blog is written inside my own classroom while the class is still going on.I don't know how I feel about my hopes are being vaporized in air as days gone by.I am trying hard to make my dreams hydrated but no uphill task it seems.Just like the Trichy weather everything is burning into ashes it seems.
I don't know at this point of my life what I want from life.I am trying so hard to make things work out.But hardly anything has moved.The interest among people are really at the lowest level.Even if there is interest I see little zeal in people for doing something.Whenever my fate was decided to be here I knew I am trying to do the impossible.The value addition I was seeking was never here.Yes it is true the crowd matters.During my time in bachelors perhaps i should have been more pro active.Once somebody decides to do an MBA we should consider every aspect of it.Still as a glimmer of hope I see some people devoting their lives towards UPSC exam.I don't know how far they are going to be successful in their pursuit I know for sure the knowledge they will gain during this course of preparation will help their life in immense ways.During the whole journey of UPSC I believe they will be better human being.I always wanted to pursue UPSC but never had the guts to do that.
The other aspects that I wanted to work on are also not materializing at all it seems. My dream start with the Academy is also fading away.I was not giving enough time towards it for various reasons.Now I have decided to devote a portion of my time towards my dream project.Here the things I want to do ae moving at snail's pace.My dad used to say if you are not able to move things at your own will then its your own fault for not being able to motivate your peers towards reaching the common objective.Now I wonder is it really me who is at fault or is it the environment or is it me being at the wrong place at wrong time.
I don't know why some people just can't appreciate cooperate or appreciate a good idea but in fact they go against the idea and criticize people who in fact are trying to do something.They just don't even have the courtesy to shut their mouth and let others do what they are trying to.I know I am sounding a bit pessimist but I can't help myself without sounding pessimist.Is it because of the lives we live these days or is it because of the society we live in.Lately I realized though we have moved a huge way towards liberalizing our mind but the lives we are living we don't have the time to get ourselves involved with the things that we want to do from our heart.We seriously lack the guts to think of something we want to do from core of our heart.Thereby we just don't take any interest on there things and hence try to take cheap pleasure in the form of humor by criticizing those ideas.I am sure I am struggling but still I have not put my laurels down and accepting my failure. Yes, dad I am not being able to motivate others.The fault lies with me.But I make sure one thing the day soon will come when I will transform my failures into success that you will make you proud.
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