This blog is written inside my own classroom while the class is still going on.I don't know how I feel about my hopes are being vaporized in air as days gone by.I am trying hard to make my dreams hydrated but no uphill task it seems.Just like the Trichy weather everything is burning into ashes it seems.
I don't know at this point of my life what I want from life.I am trying so hard to make things work out.But hardly anything has moved.The interest among people are really at the lowest level.Even if there is interest I see little zeal in people for doing something.Whenever my fate was decided to be here I knew I am trying to do the impossible.The value addition I was seeking was never here.Yes it is true the crowd matters.During my time in bachelors perhaps i should have been more pro active.Once somebody decides to do an MBA we should consider every aspect of it.Still as a glimmer of hope I see some people devoting their lives towards UPSC exam.I don't know how far they are going to be successful in their pursuit I know for sure the knowledge they will gain during this course of preparation will help their life in immense ways.During the whole journey of UPSC I believe they will be better human being.I always wanted to pursue UPSC but never had the guts to do that.
The other aspects that I wanted to work on are also not materializing at all it seems. My dream start with the Academy is also fading away.I was not giving enough time towards it for various reasons.Now I have decided to devote a portion of my time towards my dream project.Here the things I want to do ae moving at snail's pace.My dad used to say if you are not able to move things at your own will then its your own fault for not being able to motivate your peers towards reaching the common objective.Now I wonder is it really me who is at fault or is it the environment or is it me being at the wrong place at wrong time.
I don't know why some people just can't appreciate cooperate or appreciate a good idea but in fact they go against the idea and criticize people who in fact are trying to do something.They just don't even have the courtesy to shut their mouth and let others do what they are trying to.I know I am sounding a bit pessimist but I can't help myself without sounding pessimist.Is it because of the lives we live these days or is it because of the society we live in.Lately I realized though we have moved a huge way towards liberalizing our mind but the lives we are living we don't have the time to get ourselves involved with the things that we want to do from our heart.We seriously lack the guts to think of something we want to do from core of our heart.Thereby we just don't take any interest on there things and hence try to take cheap pleasure in the form of humor by criticizing those ideas.I am sure I am struggling but still I have not put my laurels down and accepting my failure. Yes, dad I am not being able to motivate others.The fault lies with me.But I make sure one thing the day soon will come when I will transform my failures into success that you will make you proud.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
New journey new beginning
I am writing something after ages...I want to reduce the gap in between but never managed to.I always have something to tell u all but never managed to write it down.Today I have decided even if I write half I will publish.It is often FB being the hindrance.Anyways today I am determined to finish this up.
Finally the day has come for which I was waiting for.After my failed attempt to enjoy life at software industry I was really eager to go for MBA.It is again a huge disappointment (or should I call it my bad luck?) that I have to come here.It is really far from home.When I entered in hostel I was determined not to commit the same mistakes once I did in my hostel.Though I was in hostel I never ever tried to make myself a part of the hostel gang.I have tried my level best for that.Yes there were obstacles.To be honest my nature is for one.I am here to change the things that does not suit me.The problem is I am always stay away from noises.But its not always possible.To do the best you have to be in positions you don't want to be in.I guess 4 years of hostel life has taught enough of it to cope with.
Regarding my hostel I was happy to be allotted a 2 seater instead of 3.I was so uncomfortable with sharing my room.It's okay I have I have room mate and I will try to see the picture from a different angle now.It may work in your favour also if you have a room mate.
The people I met here were of different personalities.Enjoyed the company of each of everyone for different reasons.Loved someone's sense of humour,someone's maturity,someone's ability to converse serious,someone for his generousness,loved someone's eagerness for study (Yes ! These days I love that too).And yes you will have people will with all sorts of imagination.The people are really of different colored.
As expected food is on the horrific side of it.Oh man imagine fried rice with curd rice no veg or dal or anything just some chutneys.These local people say its not that bad.It must be my habit.I need to get that quickly out of my system.Again from August onwards it should be okay .
A new day has actually arrived.A mixed feeling on emotional front.I know something is missing for sure.Did I do the right thing?I don't think so.Should I try to correct it?I don't really know.I messed up my life.I just feel now whatever destiny has planned for me I should better be accepting that with open arms.I did my choices go out of my hands.
Well enough of it.I am signing it off.I should better go off to sleep.Tomorrow I have a class at 9.30 am.Too bad..!!
Finally the day has come for which I was waiting for.After my failed attempt to enjoy life at software industry I was really eager to go for MBA.It is again a huge disappointment (or should I call it my bad luck?) that I have to come here.It is really far from home.When I entered in hostel I was determined not to commit the same mistakes once I did in my hostel.Though I was in hostel I never ever tried to make myself a part of the hostel gang.I have tried my level best for that.Yes there were obstacles.To be honest my nature is for one.I am here to change the things that does not suit me.The problem is I am always stay away from noises.But its not always possible.To do the best you have to be in positions you don't want to be in.I guess 4 years of hostel life has taught enough of it to cope with.
Regarding my hostel I was happy to be allotted a 2 seater instead of 3.I was so uncomfortable with sharing my room.It's okay I have I have room mate and I will try to see the picture from a different angle now.It may work in your favour also if you have a room mate.
The people I met here were of different personalities.Enjoyed the company of each of everyone for different reasons.Loved someone's sense of humour,someone's maturity,someone's ability to converse serious,someone for his generousness,loved someone's eagerness for study (Yes ! These days I love that too).And yes you will have people will with all sorts of imagination.The people are really of different colored.
As expected food is on the horrific side of it.Oh man imagine fried rice with curd rice no veg or dal or anything just some chutneys.These local people say its not that bad.It must be my habit.I need to get that quickly out of my system.Again from August onwards it should be okay .
A new day has actually arrived.A mixed feeling on emotional front.I know something is missing for sure.Did I do the right thing?I don't think so.Should I try to correct it?I don't really know.I messed up my life.I just feel now whatever destiny has planned for me I should better be accepting that with open arms.I did my choices go out of my hands.
Well enough of it.I am signing it off.I should better go off to sleep.Tomorrow I have a class at 9.30 am.Too bad..!!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
the age of animals is back
This blog I am writing is the result of questions that keeps coming back...All this started when I came across a facebook profile of my friend's friend which reads relationship status as "open relation"..I have seen this status many times at many places but never really knew what it meant.
Well it's not like I didnot have any idea but I was never sure about this..I searched the online dictionaries and found some amazing meaning..
1.A relationship in which two people agree that they want to be together, but can't exactly promise that they won't see other people too. Basically, to have it all: a significant other and the freedom to hook up with other people. Common during college for many post-high school relationships.
2.An open relationship is a relationship where one person does not own the other. The couple are not exclusively seeing each other and can date, flirt and hook up with other people should they wish to do so. In a true open relationship the couple will be fully honest with each other (unlike most regular relationships). They will not get pissed at each other for stupid things such as not ringing the day before, wearing a slutty top, passing out cold in a club, kissing that lesbian in the lift. Infact they will just love each other for who they are and support each other through times of need. Although other people will say they are sluts and it will never work, they onlys say this because they are jealous. In the end the couple will get bored of seeing other people because they realise they are the best two out there.
I must admit this sounds like something that is in sync with true nature..free soul..imagine a life where you can date your partners friend,flirt just about anyone you want to..if not to mention the ***....I admit relationship are not always easy...its sometimes about suppressing your feelings...I don't know how many of you know about Osho..but the open relationship is in line with the Osho philosophy(religion??)
Having said that I think whatever you feel about this "honesty" in open relationship its nothing compares with the honesty that exist in a committed relation..the feeling of sacrifice would probably never exist in this kind of relationships..it feels really nice to know if someone's inclination towards anyone else apart from from you irks you like nothing more..the small pleasures of caring...you know jealousy is also a kind in love..would you get that in open relationship??i believe even the excitement is also missing when it comes to open relationships..I donno the more advancement with technology we are becoming more animal than human...it looks good with animals..but not with people..whats with people eating flash??when small babies becomes rich's favorite food..something is seriously wrong...i am not against naturist but should there exist a limit??Again argument for the naturist is to not to have any limit...i don't know but these all messed up..
Personally I have nothing against anyone in open relationship....i know this is highly opinion-ed piece of crap but again common people you are naturist..you allow people without any boundaries...with that i can safely say I would beg to differ when it comes open relationships.I always believe homosexual or lesbians relations are perfectly justifiable..because this is something that the society suppressed them for ages...the genders exist are not only male and female...but open relationship is a move backwards..at least for me!!
Well it's not like I didnot have any idea but I was never sure about this..I searched the online dictionaries and found some amazing meaning..
1.A relationship in which two people agree that they want to be together, but can't exactly promise that they won't see other people too. Basically, to have it all: a significant other and the freedom to hook up with other people. Common during college for many post-high school relationships.
2.An open relationship is a relationship where one person does not own the other. The couple are not exclusively seeing each other and can date, flirt and hook up with other people should they wish to do so. In a true open relationship the couple will be fully honest with each other (unlike most regular relationships). They will not get pissed at each other for stupid things such as not ringing the day before, wearing a slutty top, passing out cold in a club, kissing that lesbian in the lift. Infact they will just love each other for who they are and support each other through times of need. Although other people will say they are sluts and it will never work, they onlys say this because they are jealous. In the end the couple will get bored of seeing other people because they realise they are the best two out there.
I must admit this sounds like something that is in sync with true nature..free soul..imagine a life where you can date your partners friend,flirt just about anyone you want to..if not to mention the ***....I admit relationship are not always easy...its sometimes about suppressing your feelings...I don't know how many of you know about Osho..but the open relationship is in line with the Osho philosophy(religion??)
Having said that I think whatever you feel about this "honesty" in open relationship its nothing compares with the honesty that exist in a committed relation..the feeling of sacrifice would probably never exist in this kind of relationships..it feels really nice to know if someone's inclination towards anyone else apart from from you irks you like nothing more..the small pleasures of caring...you know jealousy is also a kind in love..would you get that in open relationship??i believe even the excitement is also missing when it comes to open relationships..I donno the more advancement with technology we are becoming more animal than human...it looks good with animals..but not with people..whats with people eating flash??when small babies becomes rich's favorite food..something is seriously wrong...i am not against naturist but should there exist a limit??Again argument for the naturist is to not to have any limit...i don't know but these all messed up..
Personally I have nothing against anyone in open relationship....i know this is highly opinion-ed piece of crap but again common people you are naturist..you allow people without any boundaries...with that i can safely say I would beg to differ when it comes open relationships.I always believe homosexual or lesbians relations are perfectly justifiable..because this is something that the society suppressed them for ages...the genders exist are not only male and female...but open relationship is a move backwards..at least for me!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
carrera de la vida la carrera de paz
It's been ages since I sat down to write something...It's not like I did not want to but it always due to my laziness.If I can manage to sort out this "Boy you will go a long distance"--says my old man.Who am I to protest??
Its for the first time I sitting to write something when the mind is completely blank.Every time I sat down before I had words oozing into my ears prompting me to write.But today I feel some emptiness.
Sometimes I use to wonder why we are like this?why our life can't get any simpler?is it me or everyone else is feeling or going through the same.we are entering a phase which is perhaps the most crucial point of our life..at 25 we all are asking only one question to ourselves..what we really want from life??is it money?is it knowledge?is it love or is it peace?
I tried to analyze this question and I found after fulfilling our basics (hey don't get me wrong all branded items fall into this category,i mean to say complacent level..the point where u know u can't compete any more financially...gonna explain...don't worry).......we don't require money..after doing study it leads into again emptiness...(these are bores anyway!!)......we all want is appreciation...trust me nothing compares to it..appreciation,admiration self esteem are the words people won't admit but they seek for....(I also want a small admiration for this piece of shit..!!who doesnot??)..
The race we run in our lives only because we want to get ahead without even know why r we running the race at first place??the reason is simple we want to get applauded for running better than other...often heard of the terms like not challenging enough..not fat salaries...see the hidden fact is again admiration....we want a job which will perhaps lead our lives into misery...why??is it because it's more challenging?or will give more money??Nope...to prove myself better than yours..My wish is to stay with my family and earn enough for them..why won't I choose a easy way when I know it will lead me into peace of mind.....because yaar I will be termed as someone who doesnot fit for running in the undeclared competition of getting ahead...we want our child to go into the best colleges only because it will be a proof that he is running well for himself n his family.......competitiveness..the blue eyes word of corporates actually works in everyday human life..it's just that they are being open to it......
I too running the same distance...actually I believe I don;t have the guts to put these competition behind me..If I had confidence in myself probably I wouldnot had to shout it loud..but again I believe one day I would have that confidence in myself I would stop running and will search out for the journey of my inner peace...
So bring it on now.............Bring It On ahora
Its for the first time I sitting to write something when the mind is completely blank.Every time I sat down before I had words oozing into my ears prompting me to write.But today I feel some emptiness.
Sometimes I use to wonder why we are like this?why our life can't get any simpler?is it me or everyone else is feeling or going through the same.we are entering a phase which is perhaps the most crucial point of our life..at 25 we all are asking only one question to ourselves..what we really want from life??is it money?is it knowledge?is it love or is it peace?
I tried to analyze this question and I found after fulfilling our basics (hey don't get me wrong all branded items fall into this category,i mean to say complacent level..the point where u know u can't compete any more financially...gonna explain...don't worry).......we don't require money..after doing study it leads into again emptiness...(these are bores anyway!!)......we all want is appreciation...trust me nothing compares to it..appreciation,admiration self esteem are the words people won't admit but they seek for....(I also want a small admiration for this piece of shit..!!who doesnot??)..
The race we run in our lives only because we want to get ahead without even know why r we running the race at first place??the reason is simple we want to get applauded for running better than other...often heard of the terms like not challenging enough..not fat salaries...see the hidden fact is again admiration....we want a job which will perhaps lead our lives into misery...why??is it because it's more challenging?or will give more money??Nope...to prove myself better than yours..My wish is to stay with my family and earn enough for them..why won't I choose a easy way when I know it will lead me into peace of mind.....because yaar I will be termed as someone who doesnot fit for running in the undeclared competition of getting ahead...we want our child to go into the best colleges only because it will be a proof that he is running well for himself n his family.......competitiveness..the blue eyes word of corporates actually works in everyday human life..it's just that they are being open to it......
I too running the same distance...actually I believe I don;t have the guts to put these competition behind me..If I had confidence in myself probably I wouldnot had to shout it loud..but again I believe one day I would have that confidence in myself I would stop running and will search out for the journey of my inner peace...
So bring it on now.............Bring It On ahora
Thursday, July 9, 2009
imaging india through nilekani's specs
hi everyone;
I am writing this blog after a long time...it's a lazy day i have nothing to do n i have to sit in front of the pc for some more time....so thought of writing something that occupies my mind for last some days..actually 2 things are bringing this blog out..1.I was reading Nandan's book "IMAGING INDIA" 2.Nandan incidentally resigned from Infosys to join unique id project....when I first heard of the news I thought this Gov't is doing marvelous job in bringing out most talented person from industry to the most rigorous job and probably most important also in the wake of terrorism,infiltration,tax collection and many more..i thought this Gov't would bring Dr. Montek Singh Ahluwalia for the post of finance minister.Because Dr. Manmohan Singh was instrumental after the mandate in his favor.Probably expected some tough measures also.But nothing happened.After the budget every one will agree the tough calls were missing from it.Anyways you will have to agree the spending on "Aam Admi" is most welcome.I think I am going more into the budget than Nandan's appointment.No doubt Nandan's credibility.He has proved himself to be the most eligible choice for that post.But one has to doubt the criteria that Nandan probably was choosen for.One who has read Nandan's book is bound to feel that Nandan's frequent praise of Nehru Gandhi family was a reason if not the main reason...throughout the book you will feel like it's like listening to Kapil Sibal or Arjun Singh(who is the flag bearer of the king dyanasty)....my initial excitement about Nandan's appointment was dampened by the fact that even for a person of Nandan's stature or eligibility had to be boosted by praising songs of India's kings family....
One could easily say the same thing about Shashi Tharoor....India this is India...we need someone to praise or lobbby for certain things or people even when he is the most deserving...
At last I hope whatever be the cost of it...we want Nandan to succeed because this is India's one of the most vital project that could decide India's future...Go Nandan go..our good wishes are with you..
I am writing this blog after a long time...it's a lazy day i have nothing to do n i have to sit in front of the pc for some more time....so thought of writing something that occupies my mind for last some days..actually 2 things are bringing this blog out..1.I was reading Nandan's book "IMAGING INDIA" 2.Nandan incidentally resigned from Infosys to join unique id project....when I first heard of the news I thought this Gov't is doing marvelous job in bringing out most talented person from industry to the most rigorous job and probably most important also in the wake of terrorism,infiltration,tax collection and many more..i thought this Gov't would bring Dr. Montek Singh Ahluwalia for the post of finance minister.Because Dr. Manmohan Singh was instrumental after the mandate in his favor.Probably expected some tough measures also.But nothing happened.After the budget every one will agree the tough calls were missing from it.Anyways you will have to agree the spending on "Aam Admi" is most welcome.I think I am going more into the budget than Nandan's appointment.No doubt Nandan's credibility.He has proved himself to be the most eligible choice for that post.But one has to doubt the criteria that Nandan probably was choosen for.One who has read Nandan's book is bound to feel that Nandan's frequent praise of Nehru Gandhi family was a reason if not the main reason...throughout the book you will feel like it's like listening to Kapil Sibal or Arjun Singh(who is the flag bearer of the king dyanasty)....my initial excitement about Nandan's appointment was dampened by the fact that even for a person of Nandan's stature or eligibility had to be boosted by praising songs of India's kings family....
One could easily say the same thing about Shashi Tharoor....India this is India...we need someone to praise or lobbby for certain things or people even when he is the most deserving...
At last I hope whatever be the cost of it...we want Nandan to succeed because this is India's one of the most vital project that could decide India's future...Go Nandan go..our good wishes are with you..
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Why do you cry ?
cry!!one of most purest emotion ever..i have found this photo on flickr..i think it's one of best picture summarizing the pain in India's poorest section...
Can we do anything to relieve from pain?that's for you all to think about
Can we do anything to relieve from pain?that's for you all to think about
Friday, May 29, 2009
software industry, career, hope ,satisfaction etc.
Hi everyone this is probably a blog not many will find interesting...today we got our salary n it's pretty less than expected ...every person in our office was so frustrated with this they are thinking of other career options...suddenly all realized that they are not happy...the job is not challenging ...nobody is there to reward you for your good work ...so on and on...suddenly everyone is finding all the flows in the company and feeling the heat..for me I always thought of these things money doesn't get any new reason for me...I always have felt this industry is not for someone who has talent it's for someone who has dogmatic character...
if someone is inside this industry finding satisfaction I would say he lacks something so he has to stay contended...a life with no time to spare for family or friends...the most busiest person is the earth...but what does a software engineer do?I am telling you the answer....he counts the grass in a playing field where one side is ending and another one just starting to grow...so goes on counting....any guess why?he is getting paid man!!a hefty salary!!!
i think i have already written a very big blog...i will like to end with a famous quote i heard somewhere...software engineers are like fighter pilots running autorikshas....n hey there are many autoriksha drivers are also there
if someone is inside this industry finding satisfaction I would say he lacks something so he has to stay contended...a life with no time to spare for family or friends...the most busiest person is the earth...but what does a software engineer do?I am telling you the answer....he counts the grass in a playing field where one side is ending and another one just starting to grow...so goes on counting....any guess why?he is getting paid man!!a hefty salary!!!
i think i have already written a very big blog...i will like to end with a famous quote i heard somewhere...software engineers are like fighter pilots running autorikshas....n hey there are many autoriksha drivers are also there
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